I am so blessed to be in this loving and supportive community
My grief increases day by day, the tears continue to flow.
In the "real" world, few have tried to console me, they say " at least Tuffy is no longer suffering", my reply is " Yes, I know that, it is I who is suffering now. "
Tuffy's death did not sever the bond we have. In my heart and mind he is still with me, it kills me not having him stare into my eyes, it hurts that I cannot hold him, I cannot e comforted or calmed as he was so wise to do this for me. a gentle touch of his paw on my forearm, a sneaky little kiss on my ankle, the toy, his baby hedgehog he would allow me to have to cheer my sadness. The funny acts he performed to crack me up laughing. My love, my best friend forever. He knew the command " watch me!" I know he still watches me. I miss him so much, every thing I do, everywhere I go, it was Tuffy first. I had a Medical appointment this week. The Doctor came in the room head down asking, "where's Tuffy?I was looking forwardto se eing him" I cried, I told him Tuffy died.We both cried. Tuffy was a big Celebrity a big Personality. I was his pet-person, barely noticed at the other end of the leash. Anywhere I go Tuffy is expected to appear. I took a trip to New York recently, the flight attendant asked for him!!! Tuffy had his wings from SW Air, the little guy was a coast to coast frequent flyer.
There will be no " getting over" his loss. Every inquiry , need to explain how and why he died, and every dead silence or words of sympathy adds another crack in my heart.I grew up with dogs, raised a family with dogs, they were a significant part of our family. This was something different and special, this was just Tuffy and Mommy. Never alone together. Loving and caring for each other. I know that you know,
God Bless and keep you well.
It is good, a blessing, to have so much care from you all. "